沒辦法「終止」的人生，祈禱、祈求替代遠離與終止。
沒錯！當人們問起悉達多，有關延續性的生命時，悉達多像觸電般跳了起來，「延續性」這個想法，還沒在他的腦海出現過，一直以來他都在研究終止性，再一次悉達多面臨更大的衝擊。
終止的生命，尋求離去，甚至是想盡辦法研究，要如何終止生命之苦，就是不想停留於人的世界。人的世界苦與難太多了。
他從來沒意識到，大部份的人們，是尋求怎麼好好活下去的。
而且自己也還沒離開人的世界，自己的身體就在跟人相互的依靠間活著，哪怕是把生活的需求降到最低，還是跟人依靠著，如果一切得到終止，代表跟人群的關係畫上休止符，哪曾經的依存是什麼意義? 不是一場夢吧 !
悉達多最無法接受夢的說法，那跟吃聖旨沒什麼兩樣，自己被狼吃進肚子过，被吞噬的感覺讓他很清楚，那不是一場夢。
悉達多試著打開他的視窗，看看別人的生活。
半寄
If there’s no way to make an end of things, then perhaps
prayer will work.
That’s right! When people asked Siddhartha about the
continuity of life, Siddhartha was dumbfounded, for the idea of continuity
had never occurred to him. All along he had been fixated on the end of things,
so the idea of continuity gave him quite a shock.
Making an end of suffering amounts to leaving the world
with all its attendant tribulation.
He never realized that most people are looking for a way
to live well.
Moreover, while one is still in the world, one lives in
dependence on others. Even if one reduces the demands of life to a minimum, one
still has to rely on others to some extent. If everything were to come to an
end, it would amount to ending one’s relationships with others, in which case
one’s previous interdependence would have been nothing but a dream.
Siddhartha could not accept that it’s a dream, which
for him is the same as eating shengzhi. He had been eaten by the wolf, and the
feeling of being devoured made him certain that it was not a dream.
If he didn't resist with all his strength, he would not
have survived the ordeal.
Siddhartha was trying to open a window onto the world, so
as to see the lives of others.
Master Ban Ji
