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馬來西亞之旅（信仰和思想）
帶學生去馬來西亞7天6夜畢業旅行剛回來，因為是由ㄧ位李牧師團隊帶領策劃及贊助部份經費，行程中免不了宣教行程，所以我接觸了許多當地的家庭，教會及教友。也讓我見識到基督徒的信仰，是什麼樣貌。
有一種感覺：信仰和思想是兩回事。
有一位看起來十分有氣質且身體硬朗的70多歲的阿婆（馬來西亞人稱奶奶為阿婆），她告訴我和文宗：她年輕時有過非常辛苦的糟遇，在她生了5個孩子後，她先生跟小三跑了。當時，她騎著摩托車，腿上綁了一把刀，打算去殺那個小三。後來沒砍成小三，也曾想帶孩子自殺，直到她遇見耶穌，她的人生越來越好。甚至後來，得到癌症的先生帶小三回來，她還照顧他們，煮飯給他們吃。我們去拜訪她的其中兩個孩子的家，看起來都是當老闆的有錢人了。（她的孩子跟我和文宗差不多年紀）。她很細心，看文宗手機營幕貼紙破掉，直接叫女兒開車到商店換一個給文宗。
她還告訴我們：人有三種東西要厚，第一，肚皮要厚，才能吃下很多東西。第二：臉皮要厚，才能拿起很多東西，第三：腳底要厚，才能跑的很遠。這幾句話，相信是她的人生歷練過才能說出的話，我和文宗倒是挺能認同的。
只是，過了幾天的基督教日常，實在是磁場不合。我的頭腦實在無法認同因認識神，相信神，就會得到救贖。我也無法認同，一直做好事，關心人，就可以到天國這樣的概念。我知道，教友很熱於助人，但我開始有很深的體悟，如果你助的人，反過來咬你一口，你該怎麼辦？（如同我和文宗曾被學生告過）。如果我們的大腦，沒有思辯能力，沒有迴轉空間，在上帝愛人，我愛你們的口號下，我們如何成為我們想成為的人？而且，我實在害怕每天都跟一大群人在一起，社交有其益處，但實在不適合我。
所以，信仰和思想，真的是兩回事。
文/洪雅玲
A
Journey to Malaysia: Faith and Thought
Greetings,
friends of NanZen!
I just returned from a 7-day, 6-night
graduation trip to Malaysia with my students. The trip was organized and
partially funded by Pastor Lee’s team, so naturally, the itinerary included
missionary activities. Through this, I was able to meet many local families,
churches, and church members. It gave me a firsthand look at what Christian
faith looks like.
And I had a strong realization: Faith and
thought are two different things.
There was a refined and energetic woman in
her 70s—called “Ah Po” in Malaysia, meaning “grandmother.” She told me and
Wenzong that she had suffered a lot when she was younger. After having five
children, her husband left her for another woman. At the time, she rode a
motorcycle with a knife tied to her leg, planning to kill the mistress.
Although she never carried out the attack, she once even considered taking her
own life along with her children.
Then she encountered Jesus, and her life
began to improve. Even later on, when her ex-husband—now with cancer—returned
with the mistress, she took care of them and cooked for them. We visited the
homes of two of her children, and they appeared to be wealthy business owners.
(Her children are about the same age as Wenzong and I.)
She was very attentive. When she saw that the
screen protector on Wenzong’s phone was cracked, she immediately asked her
daughter to drive him to a shop to get a new one. She also shared this wisdom
with us:
“There are three things in life that
need to be thick:
A thick stomach, so you can handle what life
feeds you.
A thick face, so you can carry what life
hands you.
Thick soles on your feet, so you can go far.”
These words could only come from someone with
rich life experience. Both Wenzong and I deeply resonated with them.
However, after several days immersed in
Christian life, I realized that the “vibe” didn’t match mine. I truly couldn’t
agree with the idea that simply by knowing and believing in God, one could
receive salvation. Nor could I accept the belief that doing good and caring for
others alone would lead to heaven.
I know that church members are very eager to
help others. But I’ve come to deeply realize: What if the people you help turn
around and hurt you? (Just like how Wenzong and I were once reported by a
student.)
If our minds lack the ability to think
critically or to pivot and reflect, and all we do is repeat slogans like “God
loves you” or “I love you,” how can we ever truly become the person we want to
be?
Also, I found myself uncomfortable constantly
being surrounded by large groups of people. While I understand the benefits of
social interaction, it’s simply not for me.
And so, I’ve come to believe: faith and
thought really are two different things.
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