在第1篇有提到生氣時的冥思，後來拉出一堆補充，讀者大概覺得離題太遠!
In part 1, I talked about meditation after an episode of anger. But since then, I have supplemented it with a lot of other talks that readers might think I have digressed.
而我的想法是不會，需要那麼多的說法，只想點出一點，你在冥思時候生氣，到底要繼續生氣，還是要把事情想清楚再說，如果這時用自我愛當標準來衡量自己，是要覺得太愛自己才引燃生氣? 還是要覺得應該釐清內容才是?
I don't think that's the case. I said all these to raise a point. When you are meditating, and you are angry, should you continue with your anger, or should you try to figure things out first? If you use self-love as a criterion to judge yourself, do you think you are angry because you love yourself too much? Or do you think you need to figure out why you are angry?
在我過去的觀察了解裡。 打坐時出現的情緒，常會讓學者不知道該怎麼辦? 總覺得現在在冥思，為什麼無法專心? 想專心又無法克制情緒，在修行與情緒間掙扎不知如何是好?
Based on my observations, emotions that came out during meditation often cause confusion in a practitioner. If he does not know how to handle it, he would not be able to understand why he cannot concentrate in meditation. He wanted to concentrate, but cannot control his emotions, and cannot figure out what to do between the struggle of Practice and emotions.
假使你平常的閱讀量夠，會有充足的資訊提供自己參考，知道的愈多愈可以判斷該怎樣面對自己的情緒，從許多理念的看法裡，找出適用點，看見自己情緒的不安，明確的決定該如何看待自己，是愛自己產生了障礙，還是該做其他的想法，來解決雜亂叢生的阻礙，我個人常用「自我愛太深」的詞，來譴責自己無法突破的修學，又常回頭安慰疲憊不堪的自己，企圖從中調出好的音律。
If you normally read a lot, you will have plenty of information to help you understand how to face your own emotions. The more you know, the better you will be able to decide how to face yourself. You will be able to take many theories and ideas to find something suitable, to see the disturbed emotions, and clearly see how you should see yourself. Is your self-love becoming an obstacle for you? Or is there some other reason? Personally, I use the phrase "Love Myself too much" to criticize myself when I was not able to make a breakthrough, but then use the same phrase to comfort my exhausted self. I try to find a good rhythm in Practice.
半寄 Master Ban Ji
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