藍光1 -2（疑）Blue Light 1 -2（Doubt)

 藍光1 （疑）

 

似期待藍光降臨般

 

天色暗絕

真有藍光？

 

遲疑 再 遲疑

遲疑 ——再遲疑

 

我邊走邊吶喊，邊走邊狂呼

 

夜深沈，迷濛，悄然

 

我無力於曠野

無眠於大地

 

 

藍光2

（疑）

 

星光已絕，痴狂無力

 

不！

絕不——消逝夜裡

 

像壯士死於戰場

我將死於黑夜、願死於黑夜

 

是了！

窮盡最後一口氣

不等藍光了，我飛出天際

 

半寄

——— 2011.8.31 晨

 

 

 

Blue Light 1 (Doubt)

 

As though awaiting a blue radiance

 

The sky falls into absolute dark—

Is there truly such a light?

 

Hesitation, then hesitation again—

Hesitation upon hesitation

 

I walk, crying out,

I walk, shouting into the void

 

Night—deep, dim, hushed

 

Powerless in the wilderness,

Sleepless upon the earth

 

 

Blue Light 2

 

Starlight extinguished;

I am exhausted and overwhelmed

 

No!

Never will I fade into the night

 

Like a warrior slain in battle,

I will meet my end in darkness—

I choose the dark

 

Yes!

With my final breath spent,

I abandon the blue light

and rise beyond the sky

 

Master Banji

—Morning, August 31, 2011