必也一說
台灣的讀者抱怨我說，沒有把一些好的經歷端出來，任憑人家攻擊我！
本來我寫的佛法就是台灣佛教徒——已被制式化的佛學教育制衡，是不能懂的，早就不期待。
再來，既然不懂我的文章內容有什麼珍貴處，那攻擊對我又有什麼🤔？
再加上我也上了年齡，世事看多了！
那一些也早就不在我眼裡，
況且那些國外學者對台灣講說的佛法批評，根本就是恥辱，如果不是發覺他們有持續在看南禪的網站，有什麼好說的！
如果我所理解的佛法能夠寫出來，雪恥，這才是真正要做的事，
前面說過我在1991年就已經衝破了第一關，
等我把佛法跟修行的功力都具足以後，何懼，世人不能知道我？
年輕的時候，從錄音帶裡聽到一個說法，對廣欽老和尚的比諭是，猴子也是吃香蕉的，因為廣老是吃水果的，然後錄音檔裡面掌聲滿滿，
在佛教的大活動裡面，親眼看過廣老的徒弟要被揪出來打的，
這裡面只有一個說明，
有修行的貼標籤成魔，
打人的貼標籤成佛，
貼標籤成為臺灣佛教必備的標準，令人不寒而慄，
這在我年輕的時候早就絕望，不敢想自己走到什麼世界了？
剩下的只是我對佛法的情感而已，佛法不隸屬於誰吧！
我後來看了歐洲宗教史，把這些東、西方宗教的濫權放一邊，走上自己研讀與努力進入佛法內容的路，
幸好，我沒有時間憤世嫉俗，
而年輕就已經摸著邊的佛法，也一直支撐著我大步的往前，
我依然願意為佛法貢獻，只此。
我個人本著研讀的佛法資料是什麼就說什麼，那裡面有被證實的事實，
不再是研究的歸研究，講又是另外一回事。
前面提到，很多資料的研究也得來不易，要不是時代的進步，根本不可能，
在南禪讀書會常常提到我對自己的佛法成績，認為是拜時代所賜，
沒有那麼好的資料，我再用功也是事倍功半。
這幾年在南禪部落格，培養出來的讀者有多少我個人清楚，
既然佛陀的大弟子舍利弗聽到所誦偈，就可以證入佛法果位，那麼佛法的證入永遠是給有準備的善知識。
我不打擾別人的信仰，只能說：
佛教徒信仰的是佛教，
我信仰的是佛法，
各有所歸！
半寄
A Necessary Statement
Taiwanese readers complain that I haven't presented some of my valuable experiences, allowing others to attack me without defense.
Frankly, I never expected my Dharma writings to be accessible to Taiwanese Buddhists, whose intellectual approach is already rigid and circumscribed by conventional Buddhist education.
Moreover, if they cannot recognize what is valuable in my writings, then what difference do their attacks make to me? 🤔
In addition, I am no longer young and have seen much of the world.
Such matters have long ceased to matter to me.
As for the criticisms of Taiwanese Buddhism made by certain overseas scholars, they are nothing short of humiliating. If I had not noticed that they continue to read the Nanzen website, there would be nothing further to say.
If my understanding of the Dharma can be written down and thereby wash away this disgrace, then that is the task that truly matters.
As mentioned earlier, I had already broken through the first barrier in 1991.
Once my understanding of the Dharma and my cultivation are fully mature, why should I fear that the world does not recognize me?
In my youth, I once heard a cassette recording that mocked Venerable Master Guangqin with the analogy, “Even monkeys eat bananas,” simply because the Master lived on fruit. The tape was met with loud applause.
At large Buddhist gatherings, I personally witnessed disciples of Master Guangqin being singled out and beaten.
This reveals only one thing:
those who truly cultivate are branded as demons,
while those who strike others are branded as Buddhas.
Putting labels on people has become a basic rule in Taiwanese Buddhism, and it is frightening.
I lost hope in this already when I was young, and I dared not imagine what kind of world I had entered.
What remains is only my deep commitment to the Dharma itself. The Dharma doesn't belong to anyone!
Later, after studying European religious history, I set aside the abuses of power found in both Eastern and Western religions and chose my own path—studying the Dharma and striving to enter its true meaning.
Fortunately, I had no time to become cynical or resentful.
The Dharma, which I began to grasp when I was young, has consistently sustained my great strides forward.
I remain willing to contribute to the Dharma—nothing more.
I speak only according to what I have studied in Buddhist sources, stating things as they truly are.
Within them are facts that have been verified.
Research no longer remains separate from what is preached.
As mentioned earlier, much of this research material was extremely difficult to obtain. Without the progress of our era, it would have been impossible.
In the Nanzen study club, I often acknowledge that my achievements in Dharma are a gift of the era.
Without such excellent resources, even my diligent efforts would yield only half the result.
Over these past years, I know very well how many readers have been cultivated through the Nanzen blog.
Since the Buddha’s great disciple Śāriputra attained realization simply upon hearing a verse, the realization of the Dharma has always been reserved for prepared and capable good friends.
I do not interfere with others’ beliefs. I can only state:
Buddhists believe in Buddhism(the institutional religion).
I believe in the Dharma (the ultimate truth).
We each have our own path.
Master Banji
