禪宗「我是誰？」1
南禪朋友早安！
要講禪宗祖師，「我是誰」的禪語話頭又飄上來！ 跟「我是
誰」
糾葛近四十年！很多時候「我」就在眼前，卻動也不動！
有些時候「我」在天邊卻怎麼喚也喚不回頭！
常常自問「你不就是你嗎？」
對啊！「我不就是我嗎？」
但我從沒有一刻離開你（比四十年更久），我怎麼不認識你
呢？！
用盡力氣跟各式辦法，當「我可以動一下我時」，無盡喜悅⋯⋯
Chan School ‘Who am I?’ 1
Good morning, friends of NanZen!
When I was preparing my talk of Zen Patriarchs, Chan huatou ‘Who
am I?’ came into my mind! During the nearly 40 years I have
struggled with ‘Who am I?’, ‘I’ is often just right in front of me but
doesn’t move at all.
Sometimes, it is in the sky and doesn’t come back for my call no
matter how I call it.
I keep asking myself, ‘Aren’t you just you?’.
Yes! ‘Aren’t I who I am?’
Since I have been with ‘me’ all the time (for more than 40 years), how
come I don’t know who I am?!
After trying my best and seeing ‘me’ move forward a little bit, I am
overjoyed…
Banji
南禪朋友早安！
當德山禪師被問到「過去心、現在心、未來心了不可得，現在
要點哪顆心時」啞口無言！
剎那間一生建立的價值觀全部被破滅！經歷過這種感覺的人，
會知道那是什麼滋味！
「心」的講述不論東方、西方，都有像碰到形而上學的困難！
心驚！
不能留，向上又須要踏板，於是糾葛便經常性的存在，最常取
笑自己的是，痴啊！
也不敢想，錯誤的自我認知，如果不破滅，將置己身於何處？
半寄
Chan School ‘Who am I?’ 2
Good morning, friends of NanZen!
When Zen Master Deshan was asked ‘Since the heart of the past, the
heart of the present, andthe heart of the future are not accessible,
which heart shall we light?’, he was astonished and speechless.
His faith of a lifetime was shattered abruptly all of a sudden! Only
those who had experienced it could tell what it was like!
Discussions of mind, whether in the east or he west, will involve
difficult debates of Metaphysics.
That the past, the present and the future do not stay often frightens me
because it leaves me in the conundrum of having to push myself to
move forwards but lacking ladders for it.Despite knowing it is
difficult
to solve this conundrum, I still insist on working it out. Therefore, I
tease myself ‘fool’ the most frequently! I dare not think where to
settle myself if I don’t dispel my wrong self-perception.
Banji
南禪朋友早安！
初見「我是誰？」是震撼加心動！年輕時對自己非常有信心，
我一定要衝破他！
幾年以後開始畏懼「自我」因為我不懂他！
後來擴大閲讀範圍，才知道「大我 與小我」原來是這麼折磨人
的題目，難怪修行者老是説：苦哉，苦哉！（有大德提醒我，
禪師都喊：蒼天，蒼天！）
哈哈 「我是誰？」目前是親切的問號！
半寄
Chan School ‘Who am I?’ 3
Good morning, friends of NanZen!
When first encountering ‘Who am I?, I was shocked and excited, but
confident of solving it in my younger days.
However, several years later, I started to fear it as I found I didn’t
know it.
Later after broadening my reading list, I found ‘interpersonal self
and inner self’ was such an exhausting issue.
No wonder practitioners often muttered, ‘So hard, so hard!’ (Some
people reminded me that Zen masters shouted, ‘My goodness, my
goodness!’
Haha, ‘Who am I?’ is now a friendly question mark to me!
Banji
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