禪宗 我是誰？7
挑戰「我是誰？」時，「相對性」的善與惡，「超越性」的善
與惡，
許許多多⋯⋯的層面， 在時間裡，在空間裡，一
一進入修行者的腳步。
半寄
Chan School ‘Who am I?’ 7
When practitioners try to challenge ‘Who am I?’, layers of layers of
issues such as relatively ‘good and evil’, beyond ‘good and evil’; in
space, and in time, enter their path step by step.
Master Banji
Translated by Grace Jui-hsin Tsai
Proofread by Sophia Fang-chun Kuo
禪宗「我是誰?」6
沒有佛法資源的大腦，打起坐來都是慣性的瑣碎想法。 光要讓自
己不要習慣性的胡思亂想就要費很久的時間。
勤奮的整理自己以後，讓自己跳脫慣性時，「我是誰？」就不一
樣了！
回想如果沒有佛法的泉水可喝，自己一直在無意識形態活一輩
子，將成什麼樣子？
只要有過超越慣性自己「經驗」的一點點，就能懂自己大腦原來
是貧瘠的！只能繞著慣性的路途去想、去走！
半寄
Chan School ‘Who am I?’ 6
Without resources of the BuddhaDharma, all we
have when meditating
are habitual trivial thoughts, and it takes long to train ourselves to
get rid of them.
However, after we endeavor and successfully get rid of any small
habitual response, answering ‘Who am I?’ will be different.
Looking back, were it not for the spring water of the BuddhaDharma,
what it would be like to live the rest of my life without self-
awareness?
As long as we have experience of successfully shattering any small
habitual response, we will realize how barren our brain
is and how we
are directed by habitual responses when walking the path!
Banji
禪宗「我是誰？」5
打起坐來參悟「我是誰？」大腦必須有充足的資源，不然自己
也不可能告訴自己「我是誰？」
把自己逼急了，也只會躲到牆角！
但當你資源足夠了！又何處不能參悟「我是誰？」
至今仍對禪師的：
「言語道斷，心行處滅」有著無限高峰嚮往！
禪師向來瀟灑、俐落、簡要，願在「我是誰？」的釋放裡，具
足清風明月。
半寄
Chan School ‘Who am I?’ 5
When meditating, we need to have sufficient resources in brain to
answer ‘Who am I?’. Or we may be pushed too hard and end
up hiding in the corner.
However, once equipped with enough resources, where can we not
recognize ‘Who am I’?
Up to now, I am still fascinated with the peak of Zen master's words
"言語道斷，心行處滅" (meaning, we shouldn’t practice based on
our
thoughts or past experience, for the approach of which is
completely beyond human body and difficult to practice）
Chan masters have always been chic, neat, and concise. May
you cool
breeze and a bright moon in the freedom of ‘Who am I?’.
Banji
禪宗「我是誰？」4
面對自我時日久後碰到一些瓶頸，內心的機制會自然打開，在
完全接受對「自我」的不夠理解時，外在的衝擊會變小。
「我是誰？」，當想衝破問號時，外界給的困擾也就不大，
醉心於解答時，自我的彈性會高很多，或許是「我是誰？」都
無法破解，又怎會在意很多不必要的意識型態。
半寄
Chan School ‘Who am I?’ 4
After we confront some setbacks in facing ‘self’ for some days, our
inner operating mechanism will be strengthened naturally. When we
are fully aware we don’t know ‘ourselves’ well enough, we are less
influenced by shocks from the outside world.
Devoting to solving the problem ‘Who am I?’, we become more self-
flexible and less beset by external circumstances. Perhaps it
is because
there is little energy left for unnecessaryideologies when we are
trying
our best to solving it.
Banji
禪宗「我是誰？」1
南禪朋友早安！
要講禪宗祖師，「我是誰」的禪語話頭又飄上來！ 跟「我是
誰」
糾葛近四十年！很多時候「我」就在眼前，卻動也不動！
有些時候「我」在天邊卻怎麼喚也喚不回頭！
常常自問「你不就是你嗎？」
對啊！「我不就是我嗎？」
但我從沒有一刻離開你（比四十年更久），我怎麼不認識你
呢？！
用盡力氣跟各式辦法，當「我可以動一下我時」，無盡喜悅⋯⋯
Chan School ‘Who am I?’ 1
Good morning, friends of NanZen!
When I was preparing my talk of Zen Patriarchs, Chan huatou ‘Who
am I?’ came into my mind! During the nearly 40 years I have
struggled with ‘Who am I?’, ‘I’ is often just right in front of me but
doesn’t move at all.
Sometimes, it is in the sky and doesn’t come back for my call no
matter how I call it.
I keep asking myself, ‘Aren’t you just you?’.
Yes! ‘Aren’t I who I am?’
Since I have been with ‘me’ all the time (for more than 40 years), how
come I don’t know who I am?!
After trying my best and seeing ‘me’ move forward a little bit, I am
overjoyed…
Banji
南禪朋友早安！
當德山禪師被問到「過去心、現在心、未來心了不可得，現在
要點哪顆心時」啞口無言！
剎那間一生建立的價值觀全部被破滅！經歷過這種感覺的人，
會知道那是什麼滋味！
「心」的講述不論東方、西方，都有像碰到形而上學的困難！
心驚！
不能留，向上又須要踏板，於是糾葛便經常性的存在，最常取
笑自己的是，痴啊！
也不敢想，錯誤的自我認知，如果不破滅，將置己身於何處？
半寄
Chan School ‘Who am I?’ 2
Good morning, friends of NanZen!
When Zen Master Deshan was asked ‘Since the heart of the past, the
heart of the present, andthe heart of the future are not accessible,
which heart shall we light?’, he was astonished and speechless.
His faith of a lifetime was shattered abruptly all of a sudden! Only
those who had experienced it could tell what it was like!
Discussions of mind, whether in the east or he west, will involve
difficult debates of Metaphysics.
That the past, the present and the future do not stay often frightens me
because it leaves me in the conundrum of having to push myself to
move forwards but lacking ladders for it.Despite knowing it is
difficult
to solve this conundrum, I still insist on working it out. Therefore, I
tease myself ‘fool’ the most frequently! I dare not think where to
settle myself if I don’t dispel my wrong self-perception.
Banji
南禪朋友早安！
初見「我是誰？」是震撼加心動！年輕時對自己非常有信心，
我一定要衝破他！
幾年以後開始畏懼「自我」因為我不懂他！
後來擴大閲讀範圍，才知道「大我 與小我」原來是這麼折磨人
的題目，難怪修行者老是説：苦哉，苦哉！（有大德提醒我，
禪師都喊：蒼天，蒼天！）
哈哈 「我是誰？」目前是親切的問號！
半寄
Chan School ‘Who am I?’ 3
Good morning, friends of NanZen!
When first encountering ‘Who am I?, I was shocked and excited, but
confident of solving it in my younger days.
However, several years later, I started to fear it as I found I didn’t
know it.
Later after broadening my reading list, I found ‘interpersonal self
and inner self’ was such an exhausting issue.
No wonder practitioners often muttered, ‘So hard, so hard!’ (Some
people reminded me that Zen masters shouted, ‘My goodness, my
goodness!’
Haha, ‘Who am I?’ is now a friendly question mark to me!
Banji
